"I wanted a perfect ending. Now I've learned, the hard way, that some poems don't rhyme, and some stories don't have a clear beginning, middle, and end. Life is about not knowing, having to change, taking the moment and making the best of it, without knowing what's going to happen next."

December 30, 2008


now, hmm, really busy. busy on what? who care. SPM is coming, no mud fe onlne, rarely blogging, miss a lot of things, need some space to be alone, sick having a plastic friend, shld i call "friend"?, nagged by a lot of people, focus on study, chemistry is the craziest subject, + math i cant be gud in dat! ohh im stupid, =.="

haihh, a lot of thing happen to me, but i cn tell u, hmm, did i too snstf? haihh, my lyf now full jealousy kot, i want to be that, this, i not be grateful fo what i've now. mcm sial kan perangai? i dont know lately nieh, i da chage pn, i thank GOD have such this beautiful lyf, evntgh not really full of happiness, but i've no regret. (;

hmm, buhbye my blog. i gonna miss u. ohh, i'll update once a week mybe. (:


December 28, 2008

7 songs.

1. Selepas Kau Pergi - Laluna.
2. Behind These Hazel Eyes - Kelly Clarkson.
3. Nothing Last Forever - Maroon5.
4. I Will Remember - Ryan Cabrera.
5. Fine - Bunkface.
6. Memori Tercipta - Shila OIAM.
7. Unlove You- Ashley Tisdale.
heee, Move On lahh cepatt!

December 25, 2008

lately, currently, and now.


"dekat laut ade ikan yu,
ohh luna i love you. :DD

tawu tak, luna bce smue cmmnt2 yg dlu, hmm, i read all of dat, dlu en, luna ske tgk hani nye page, tp luna ta brani tego, kdg2 brani, tego lah, sbb luna takot hani tamao kwn ngn luna. ye lah, luna spe en, tp ble kenal hunn, luna rse hunn best sgt lah, (; and seingat luna lah, 1jun2008, 1st tym kte cmmnt byk2, and 27july2008 bru kte byk share2, ((: memory uh indahhh sangat.

hmm, dlu en, almost evryday kte comment each other. and hani ske ttbe ckp "sayang luna", wahhh, i miss d old time, i really miss the memories! hmm. and luna nk ckp nieh, i never found friend lyk you hani, serious, i feel good when i know you, u best sgt! did u noe dat? u mmg terBEST lahh. lg2 ble share ngn hani, i rse betol2 oke mse uh, cpt je mud luna brubah jd baek blek, cpt je luna senyum blek. (: ily lah! luna sayang sangat kat hani! <3

now en, luna rse pelik gyle ble on, no more hani, hmm. nk on pn tade mud.
hani, if u got prblm, u sedih, u sakit, u rindu org, u nk shre, u nk kwn, u nk ngadu k, i'll be there okai, haihh, pokok nya,

i miss you, NurAmirahHani!


December 24, 2008


Da a year dah, 24dec is d date,
haih, sorry,
i cant accpt u back lah.
its hard and hurt my heart everyday
in this year,

i work so hard to mve on,
smpy crush into sum1 lah, mcm2 lah,
im so sorry, i noe,
i owe u heart,
but i cant give it.
tym has changed me, to be sum1 stronger,
and tym will change ur heart gak,
1 fine day, will come,
dun ever worry about dat.

Que Sera Sera,
What Will Be Will Be.

this is fe QQ,

December 21, 2008

unlove you. )':

I fell in a perfect way
Never had a choice to make
Crashed into your tidal wave
I didn't even struggle
Sailed right through your atmosphere
Closed my eyes and landed here
I didn't see the trouble
And I didn't care

I can't unlove you
Can't do that
No matter how I try
I'll never turn my back on
Someone who loved me too
I can do most anything I have to

But this one thing I cannot change
I almost kinda like the pain
Wear your tattoo like a stain
And it will take forever
To fade away

I can't unlove you
Can't do that
No matter how I try
I'll never turn my back on
Someone who loved me too

I can do most anything I have to
But I can't unlove you, no
Why would I want to, oh
I can't unlove you
Can't do that
I'll treasure
Get through this
Why would I want to

There's always time for other dreams
Why must we erase these things

I can't unlove you
Can't do that
No matter how I try
I'll never turn my back on
Someone who loved me too
I can do most anything I have to

I can't unlove you
Can't do that
No matter how I try
I'll never turn my back on
Someone who loved me too
I can do most anything I have to
But I can't unlove you


December 18, 2008

Its mine bday!

1. Zaqwan.
2. Amirah Hani ku syg.
3. QQ
4. Nisha ku manje.
5. Mia ku tersayang.
6. Memek sis ku.
7. Eyra ku kenit.
8. Sara ku gegendutt.
9. Amir.
10. Fara ku blurr.
11. Seyha ku Bisengg.
12. Haikal.

13. Akmal.
14. Fiqa kuh.
15. Piqa ku Barney.
16. Sakinah ku cinta.
17. Helmi.
18. Afiqah.

yg laen da pnjg sgt nk list.

Thx fe d wish ppl!


December 14, 2008

December 12, 2008

Dear Diary

i got i sweet love story!
lets read it!

Text Pal.

My cellphone's beeping sound woke me up one night. Used to receiving important messages only, I grabbed my cell and sleepily pushed the keys and read the message.

"Hi there! Care 2 b my txtmate?"

Not knowing who the sender was, I deleted the message right away and placed the phone on my bedside table, I tried to go back to sleep.

I had just closed my eyes when I heard the message tone again.

"Hi there, again! Care 2 b my txtmate?" again, the message said.

"Who the hell could this be asking for txtmate at the wee hours of the night?" I asked myself.

Again, without bothering to reply I deleted the message.

I was never a 'textmaniac' - someone who enjoys texting anyone and everyone even at the wee hours of night, not to mention during the day. My parents, who were always out of the country forced me to own a cellphone. They told me that having one was more convenient - they could monitor me even if they're miles away.

I wanted to turn the unit off, but since my mother was fond of calling me at night, just to check if I was safe at home, I decided not to.

Just as I was to close my eyes and return to my dreamless sleep, the phone beeped again.

Same number...Such determination!

"Ply reply 2 dis msg & b an angel & save me frm dis abyss of emptiness!!!"

I never knew why, but the message struck me. I got up and pushed the keys... I just realized I was replying to the message.

"Im not an angel, n f u want som1 2 save u, m not superman... I'm just a simple prson who u wake up at dis r of my nyt!!! Nway, do I know u?" I typed.

Seconds later came the reply.

"Nope. U don't know dis lonely soul. Nor does she know u. But I want 2 b ur frnd. I'm Mikaella Cervantes. U?"

"Just call me Julius. How'd u get my no.?" I sent back.

"Hi Julius, nice 2 meet u. Just shuffled the last two digits of mine," she replied.

That was the first and maybe the last time I met someone over the cellphone.

We exchanged messages and learned so much about each other that night. We only said goodbye when my alarm clock rang at 5:00 AM! I had to prepare for school!

And that was also how it all started. A day would not pass without it loving and thoughtful messages from her. It was only then I had learned to appreciate text messages and become eager and excited everytime my phone beeped, hoping it would be her.

Mikaella brought out something about me that I never knew I had; I realized I could also be a romantic person... even if it's just through text messaging.

"Keep me as a frnd & I will keep u in my heart. Lock it up & throw away d key so dat no1 can evr tke u away from me..."
One day, she sent this message to me.

I replied: 'In life, we seldom find a true prson & f u evr find 1, hold on & nvr let go... value dat prson coz it's lyf's gift worth keeping & holdin on..."

I never knew why, but her response sent shivers to my spine, " Value d people hu hav touched ur life bcoz u will never know just wen dey will walk out of ur lyf & nvr come back again."

I couldn't understand what I felt that moment, but one thing I was sure though... I could not go on a day without a single word from her. I'd become used to having her, eventhough we had not met personally. But truly, she already occupied a space, a large one, in fact in my life.

I texted her back. "Dont come close f l8r ull jst pass by; don't touch me f l8r ull jst let me cry; dont luv me f l8r ull jst leave me and won't stay..."

I didn't know why I sent her that message, but somehow I felt, every word came from my heart. In the short span of time we were sending messages to each other, I knew, I was starting to keep her in my heart.

I called her once. The voice on the other end was like an angel's. Soft, kind, full of love. Yet, there was something in it I couldn't define. We only talked for a few minutes. Before she hung up, she told me not to call again. According to her, it would be better if we would just text each other.

But the voice kept ringing, not only in my head, but in my heart, I'd long to hear it once more. I tried to call her again, but she never answered the phone. She just kept on sending messages and quotations, which I copied in a little notebook. Hopeless romantic? I didn't know. All I could say was that all the messages she sent me were wonderful, they came from the heart and cut through the heart.

"Though we r miles apart, u r always n my heart. I close my eyes & der u r. Even f I'll see u never, I'll always b hir 2 care 4 u, far longer dan 4ever..."

One December night, she sent me this message. By that time we had been exchanging messages for more than a month. God knew how happy I was. She was right. Although we had not seen each other, what we felt was enough to make us both realize what was keeping us together.

I sent her another message, "Loving u secretly is a hard thing 4 me 2 do,hoping, wondring that u will feel d same way 2, but I can't read r mind f u luv me 2. But whatever it is, I'll still be loving u."

"How I wish I cud really tell u how much u mean 2 me, but m afraid 2 love, scared 2 get hurt... I hope dat u will wait 4 me & pray dat u will not get tired of loving me...=)" was her reply.

And then I replied again. " The reason y I met u is bcoz of destiny but f destiny will suggest dat I'll live w/o u, den, I'll lie not by destiny but of free will."

Whenever I asked her when we would meet personally, she always answered, "Soon...soon, love...soon."

Not seeing each other did not lessen, even a bit, what I felt for her...rather, it even grew deeper and stronger each day. And I was sure, she felt the same way, too. Love messages continued to flow through our lines, between our hearts, which made us go on each day with the thought that sooner, we would see each other, face to face, heart to heart.

Just a few days before Christmas. She stopped sending messages. At first I just though she had ran out of prepaid.

But there was something that kept bothering me... I couldn't understand what was it, but it made me fell nervous. I tried to call her but she wouldn't answer. Nevertheless, I continued sending messages.

Suddenly one night, just three days before Christmas. I heard my phone's message tone again... at last!It was from her!

"Oftentyms we say gudbye 2 d 1 we luv w/o wanting 2. Though dat doesn't mean dat we stopped loving dem or we stopped 2 care. Sometyms, GOODBYE is a painful way 2 say I LOVE YOU."

I was dumfounded. I didn't know what to think of. What did she mean? I texted her back, searching for answers, but found nothing. I called her but she would not answer.

For the first time in my life, I felt so miserable...desperate... empty. I didn't know what to do. I didn't want to lose her. I had learned to love her. And I wanted to be with her forever.

The following days I felt nothing but emptiness. It seemed that Mikaella took the life out of me. I missed her so much...her messages...The tones that would tell me she'd sent another loving message. Nothing around me could feel the emptiness I felt.

Tut...tut...tut...tut...tut...just a day before Christmas, my cell beeped again. It was her!

"Meet me at d café, 10 AM 2day," I read aloud, making sure the message was true, then I jumped with joy upon hearing from her again. Hurriedly, I got myself ready and I went to the mall. I knew it was still early, but I wanted to be there before she arrived.

I arrived at the meeting place ten minutes earlier. I was surprised to see her already there, smiling at me. She was very beautiful, Black, deep-set eyes that spoke a thousand words; small, kissable lips; a nose perfectly chiseled and long black hair - everything in her was beautiful. And yes, her eyes radiated kindness and love...but there was a flicker of something in them...sadness?

"Hi, Julius," said the angelic voice I had been dreaming of each night. The voice that I had waited to hear for so long. "Please sit down." "I am very pleased to meet you, Mikaella," I said, as I took my seat and gave the roses I brought for her.

"Thanks, Julius," she smiled, obviously pleased with the roses. I knew she loved pink roses.

"You are always welcome, Love" "Julius, I can't stay," she said, sadness in her voice, or was it tears? "I really must go."

"But we just met, Mikaella. Can't we talk a little longer?" I asked, pleadingly.

"I can't really. I just came here to see you and thank you for the time you shared with me. Thank you for everything, Julius. I will never forget you...you will always be here in my heart."

She was looking at me straight into the eyes, and I could really feel the sadness in her voice and I swear, there was something in her voice and I swear, there was something in those lovely yet lonely eyes...

She got up and smiled at me, lovingly.

"Tomorrow morning, please come and visit me," he said and gave me a piece of white linen paper.

I read what was written and when I looked up, she was gone. The following day, Christmas, I woke up early and excitedly readied myself,thinking of her. I hurriedly went to flower shop and bought a dozen pink roses - for Mikaella.

They lived in an exclusive subdivision.

Upon reaching their house, I told the guard who I was and that I was looking for Mikaella.

The guard stared at me, sadness and amazement in his eyes and told me to wait as he called the owner of the house. As I looked at him while he was going inside the house, only then I noticed that the house was brightly lit.

A woman went out and walked towards me, smiling sadly.

"Hi, I'm Maria, Mikaella's mother. Please come inside, Julius." While we were walking towards the mansion, she explained to me why she knew me very well - Mikaella had always been talking about her friend, Julius. I hardly understood what she was saying. I was busy thinking why Mikaella's mother was crying while talking to me.

As we came near the great hall of the house, it dawned on me that there was a wake inside, Maybe, a relative passed away, I thought. But deep in my heart, I was trembling and afraid.

As we entered the hall where so many people were silently mourning while others were praying, shaking, I asked her mother. "Where is Mikaella?"

She held my hand and silently, led me to the coffin which was surrounded by flowers - pink roses, nothing but pinkroses.

No words could explain how I felt when I gazed at the coffin and saw who was lying there. The same beautiful girl I met...

A man came beside me, I knew he was Mika's father.

"We are so glad you came, Julius. Mika talked of you all the time. She even asked that her phone be buried with her.

She said that in that way, you could still send her messages and you would always be with her."

I couldn't believe everything... My mind was in limbo.

"But how can this be? We just saw each other yesterday."

"That can't possibly be. She passed away three days ago. She had been suffering from a heart disease since she was a child," said her father.

"But..." I couldn't find the words to say.

"She told us not to bother reaching you, "her mother said, still in tears," she said you will come, and here you are.

Pain and bitterness overwhelmed me. I cried silently beside her, staring at her lovely face, memorizing every line of my friend's face, a face I knew I would never forget while I was still alive.

After the internment that afternoon, I went to the chapel she had
told me she went everyday.

Sitting there praying and crying to God, I held my phone and typed: "U taught me how 2 care; u taught me how 2 b kind; u shwd me how 2 lyk som; u shwd me how 2 luv; but ders 1 thing didnt teach me & it hurts mor - u didnt teach me how 2 let go. I LOVE YOU"

I sent the message, and though I knew she wouldn't be able to hold her CP again, I knew in my heart she would get my message. I never expected a reply, yet as my phone beeped again,felt a shiver down my spine. The sender's number did not appear on the screen, and tears rolled down my cheeks as I read the message.

"Let go of d hand of d person u love, but dont let go of God's hand. 4 if u hold 2 his hand. He may b holding d person u love n d ader hand 2 let u hold each other again."

"I will never forget you, Mikaella and will never let go..." I vowed to her and to myself as I left the church.

December 9, 2008

Wishes. (:

u should watch it! so sweet, ohh, i wish i get sum1 lyk Reza Budiman! He is damn rmntc! wawawa,
sweet kan dorg? i do hope i'll be lyk Putri Farhana Aliya Datuk Megat Farizuddin, she got a damn sweet boyf, true friend, lovely mum, and "kaya". haih, but it just a hope en. eyh, btw, putri got a very best friend en, Mia Susanna Dean. i do have it too! (: jelous nye ble tgok putri and mia together2 en. dorg bestt sgt!
jum jadi mcm them!
true friend, be at her side in any situation.

with love,
PutriLuna. (:

December 7, 2008

stay close don't go.

hmm, smue da over now. yeah, im sad now, but what else i can do?
stay close, and please don't go.
but its impossible.
i will move on, i will, and of course i can. (:


I'm staring at the glass in front of me,
is it half empty of our wins or have i ruined all you've given me?
I know I've been selfish,
I know I've been foolish,
but look through that
and you will see,
I'll do better, I know,
Baby, I can do better.

If you leave me tonight, I'll wake up alone,
don't tell me I will make it on my own,
don't leave me tonight,
this heart of stone will sing till it dies
if you leave me tonight.

Sometimes I stare at you while you are sleeping,
I listen to your breathing,
amazed how I somehow managed to
sweep you off your feet girl,
your perfect little feet girl
I took for granted what you do.
But I'll do better, I know
Baby, I can do better.

If you leave me tonight, I'll wake up alone,
don't tell me I will make it on my own,
don't leave me tonight,
this heart of stone will sing till it dies
if you leave me tonight.

And don't you know my heart is open, oh,
it's putting up the fight,
and I've got this feeling,
that everything's alright,
and don't you see,
I'm not the only one for you
but you're the only one for me.

If you leave me tonight I'll wake up alone,

(stay)If you leave me tonight,
(close) I'll wake up alone,
(don't)don't tell me I will
(go)make it on my own,
(stay)don't leave me tonight,
(close)this heart of stone
(don't) will sing till it dies
(go)if you leave me tonight.
Don't leave me tonight!

but, u da leave me last night. (;

will be fine.

December 6, 2008


i miss u, did u miss me lyk i miss u? da a week. hmm.

December 5, 2008


just a few minutes ago, i on phone wif mia! wink* wink*, agak mengimbau kenangan lame lahh, dr stu i noe, a lott of ppl yg hate me. ;P , bialahh. yg taleh blah nye en, dat ppl leh wat biase ngn luna aww. funny en, othrs ppl ckp, dorg takowt luna. hahaha. cn u imgne, a 3 years wif plastic face, yg i treat them as a gud friend? ahaha, perlu keh i sebut nme uh. ntahh, bia luna pk dlu.

Scene 1 ; Whole Year 2006 ; 2Amanah.
they are really plastic aw, infront of me, sumpah, semua macam suka je kat luna, but belakang? haihh, and word yang paling menusuk kalbu yang people ngutuk luna is, "Fatin (mia), kenapa awak rapat sangat Zulaiha (luna) tuh? aku tengok korang uh berbeza sangat, dia uh selalu bully awak". kalau u all kena macam i kena cam mana? i tak tahu lah, bila i membuli, and i pernah tanya mia, mia sendiri pun tak pernah rasapun diri nye dibuli. sumtyme ada lah, i mintak tolong pegang en, but tade lah membuli. mia ckp en, dorang takot luna, ;D , depan luna, semua macam sokong je luna, and yang tak sedap nak dengar dorang cuba nak jatuh en luna.

Scene 2 ; March / April 2007 ; 3Amanah.
dulu en, ade lah sesi pergaduhan besar diantara mia and her bestf lah kan. and kebetulan, dia migrain taw, then i pun cakap lahh, tak payah lah nak berlakon, replace orang lah, i just risau en dia. then, amirah cakap kat others en, i yang hasut mia, cuz i nak rebut mia from them?! WTH! macam vavivo kn! + dorang gaduh bukan i yang cetuskan.

Scene 3 ; October / November 2007 ; Bangi Golf Resort.
banyak yang berlaku weii. ;) at dat tym, i nampak semua kebenaran, siapa kawan siapa lawan. terima kasih kerana menyedarkan saya.

people, hate me as long as u want.
i dont caree.

December 4, 2008


i ta saba ngn my bday? hell no lahh. evry year i wish, my bday will clbrte at SportPlanet, Ampang. OMG, i love that place damn muchh! n theme at dat day is pink? purple lahh. sgt bestt syg! but, i just a dream lah en. (:

i wish i got all of this.

1. Title ; By The time You Read This.
Author ; Jaye , Lola.
Price ; 36.90

2. Title ; Special Delivery.
Author ;
Barnes, Zoe.
Price ; 69.90

3. Title ; Banana Splitsville.
Author ;
Clark, Catherine
Price ; 19.90

4. Title ; Miss Educated.
Author ;
Price ; 32.90

5. Tiltle ;
A Year in Europe (Three Novels)
Author ;
Hawthorne, Rachel
Price ; 29.90

luna tawu smue buku agakk classic ah en. but i nk gak!
nk beli malass. ;p
hope fo bday prsnt je lahh.

December 3, 2008

last night.

1. Crying, Insomnia
2. Miss my besf!
3. Ckp sensorg!
4. Tgok my old album
5. Need my lovely guardian angel.

my last night is totally crying night!

December 1, 2008


now en, i rse takowt sgt, takowt ajal luna nk dekat, haih, luna tawu ta baek ckp cum uh, but tu la yg luna rse now, hmm, cum dlm paper today, 2 org meninggal bcuz of tanah runtuh, bnde cum uh taleh xpax kn? dak uh same age wif me lak uh, n kebetulan bestf mia. haih, malang ta berbau, ajal taleh di agak en, pape pn, Al- Fatihah fo both of them.

ntahh, i rse len now, lg ² ble dega doc ckp. haihh, hati luna riso sgt now, i takowt i ta dpt hdup lme kdg ² , dose luna bykk ag, :( , serious now, i gyle takot. ajal n maut uh kite tatao kn? yg kite leh wat now, keep praying and praying. if i die did my bestf gonna be sad? sumtym i ta rse pn they gonna be sad, :'(

but i hope they not sad la. sbb i dun want them to cry fo me, haih, kwn² if sumthing happen to me, please, i beg to u, dun cry, luna tamao sekse korg, lg pn im not gud fren. tayah nges, just fogve wateva i do to u. (': thanks sgt korg cuz be my fren, all of u're my bestf, evnthgh u talayan pn luna. sblom nieh myb i jarang ckp kt korg n now, i want tell u all ;

U Are The Best!
I Love You!

klw pape jd kt luna, please, halal kn smue makan minum luna, ilmu yg korg bg, all laa. (: maaf kan smue salah² luna, doa kan luna, n jan pena lupe luna taw. (; ntha, when i wrte this blog, i nges, da meleleh la air mate. Friends i love u la!

fo my bestf,
miera, mia, feeta, kinah, hani, fara, seha, nisha, sara, QQ, zaqwan.
i really love you!
fo my frens,
amanians,all my frens, and my cousin.
thnks fo evrytngs!

with a lott of loves,
luna, (;

November 28, 2008


ove You Like A Sister


Menghitung Hari 2

menghitung hari detik demi detik
menunggu itu kan menjemukan
tapi ku sabar menanti jawabmu
jawab cintamu

jangan kau beri harapan padaku
seperti ingin tapi tak ingin
yg aku minta tulus hatimu
bukan pura-pura

jangan pergi dari cintaku
biar saja tetap denganku
biar semua tahu adanya
dirimu memang punyaku

jangan kau beri harapan padaku
seperti ingin tapi tak ingin
yg aku minta tulus hatimu
bukan pura-pura

jangan pergi dari cintaku
biar saja tetap denganku
biar semua tahu adanya
dirimu memang punyaku

belum pernah aku jatuh cinta
sekeras ini seperti padamu

jangan sebut aku lelaki perempuan,
bila tak bisa dapatkan engkau
jangan sebut aku lelaki perempuan..

November 26, 2008


7 Things

I probably shouldn't say this
But at times I get so scared
When I think about the previous
Relationship we shared

It was awesome but we lost it
It's not possible for me not to care
And now we're standing in the rain
But nothing's ever gonna change
Until you hear, my dear

The 7 things I hate about you!
The 7 things I hate about you, oh you
You're vain, your games, you're insecure
You love me, you like her
You make me laugh, you make me cry
I don't know which side to buy

Your friends, they're jerks
When you act like them, just know it hurts
I wanna be with the one I know
And the 7th thing I hate the most that you do
You make me love you

It's awkward and silent
As I wait for you to say
What I need to hear now
Your sincere apology

When you mean it, I'll believe it
If you text it, I'll delete it
Let's be clear
Oh, I'm not coming back
You're taking 7 steps here

The 7 things I hate about you!
You're vain, your games, you're insecure
You love me, you like her
You make me laugh, you make me cry
I don't know which side to buy

Your friends, they're jerks
When you act like them, just know it hurts
I wanna be with the one I know
And the 7th thing I hate the most that you do
You make me love you!

And compared to all the great things
That would take too long to write
I probably should mention the 7 that I like

The 7 things I like about you!
Your hair, your eyes, your old Levi's
When we kiss I'm hypnotized
You make me laugh, you make me cry
But I guess that's both I'll have to buy

Your hands in mine
When we're intertwined, everything's alright
I wanna be with the one I know
And the 7th thing I like most that you do
You make me love you, you do

November 25, 2008


ngeh, i miss evrythg now, hee! i miss d old luna, ngeh, im not strong lyk befo, im so weak nw! very very very weak! i want turn back tym, but i noe its impssble en, so i must face wif all of this, wat should i do ha? i want to be one of the good student, i do hope it, butt, now wat i can see, i getting stupid and stupidd, ahhh, i want to be best student, i want be lyk my brother! i want to make my parents proud of my rslt. but mybe its only hope en. ;'(

no, it must happen!
i want to beeee BEST STUDENT, wat should i do now is keep trying trying trying and trying + praying praying and praying, but now, i must be more diligent now! gahh, i want grow up! u can do it babe! (: i dun want to keep playing around ag! i'll be the best student sayang! ((:

today notes ; wahh, i miss to blogging. lovely dayy wif mia! (;

with a big hug,

November 16, 2008


ngeh, tawu la i nie spe en, miskin, papa kedane, tapenah pegang duet, ta tawu bergaya langsung, badan mcm BADAK! Hee! i tawu la i pakai baju "ladylike" jek td, jeans "secret", beg RM10 je, selipar RM11.99 je! u kan pakai jeans mahal, baju mahal, handbag, kasut stylo. n i nieh pe? SAMPAH je en, pakai mende murahh je en. (: Eh, agak agak ahh nk pilih kwn pn ohh, nk kwn ngn org yg bergaye jek, klw i tanye mesti u jwb, u kwn ngn smue en, kwn mmg la ngn smue, but layanan mengikut gaya, pe cer? mcm laa i nieh kampung sgt, u taleh ngn i only bcuz i dun have baju brjename, jeans mahall? Hee! i dun noe y i met people lyk her! pragai taleh bla!

November 12, 2008


guess what? my result is really really really bad. huhh, i am not good as others, ahh! i sick to be d stupidest la! hee, next year, there is no failing and E's. enough, SPM is evrythingg. stop playing around, no hwat-gossip fe the next year, no myspace-ing, no im-ing, no game, but only study. (: i hope i'll b 1 of d best student, i noe im not gonna be the BEST STUDENT, harapann je la, so i'll be 1 of d best student la which mybe possible to ordinary student lyk me. (: i just want to go to indonesia and be dentist, actully im not sure bout it yet, but if i've to choose between medic and dentistry i'll chose dentistry. but the real reason is, i noe im not quallified to study medic. so, y should i hope fo sumthing that is impossible. pathetic en? :'( i want to be doctor before this, but when i look at my result, there is no hope for that. Architect, ohhh, i really hope i'll be that, gahh, but mum said im not sum1 who r "berseni". im not "berseni".hahaha, so how could i be architect en, i can design home but i d k i can do for others or not. because im not "berseni", im really "keras tangan". hahaha. foget bout architect laaa. i do hope i'll be one of world saver ; take care of world, because i love our environment, gahh,

start now till next year,there is seldom blogging, myspace-ing. im prefer to be gud student. (:

p/s ; now, im trying to imprve my english,
because im not good in english. :D

gud student,

November 10, 2008


gahh, da la now i am full of problem, please dun add more la, im too tired, i lost my mood in d early morning! grrr, i d k why nk gdo bcuz of stupid jamuan akhir tahun uh, mood i pepagi spoil only bcuz of dat! tapaya smpai nk tggi en sore uh, if i want to i'll, but i tanak keruh en lg keadaan, u mara tanpe henti, u ta pk lgsg prsaan org en, u ckp u penat, oke fine, tp de keh luna suruh?.. da susa sgt sbb uh i bg idea, then i kne mara dpn smue org, i da set en otak i la blablabla.u tawu tak prsaan i mse uh? did u eva care? mmg tade prsaan aw! i malu aw, mcm la i nieh gle sgt nk g almnda uh, luna bukann la "kampung" sgt cum batak ngn almnda uh, bcuz i tao y i taleh get along ngn ur xtvty, ble i nk ajak org lua i kne mara, smue nk mara, ble i ckp nk g almnda pn kne. oke fine i ngaku, i tanak g cuz i taleh ngam korg! u egt x, when u scold me infront of all because of 1 ball. fyi, im not "patient person" who can stand while ppl scold at me. please la, i've chnge aw befo i went into aman, if i not chge, aminians will see the big war oke!i've change, then, u should chge to oke, otherwise, we will have a big war, bcuz no compromy, because this is 3times da, u naek en sore. im allergic to that oke! i try nk saba ngn u aww. u ckp sorry, but now sorry uh pn i da allrgc aw, bcuz i da kne 3times, i da penat. i saket aww, i jage prsaan org, but org? i'll fgve u, but please, it is not d tym yet. u hurt me, my heart now mcm da talarat tnggung all of this. i sakett, i penat, i sedih! did any1 care bout my feling? mcm no one jek! i mcm da taleh stand ag aww! i am too tired. please dun hurt me again and again.

today notes ; i hate evrything today.

i am not in mood,

November 8, 2008

r we fighting?

hmm today, nta, i da byk beban en org ngn my problem, i shre my prblem wif a lot of ppl, n i burden them, im so sorry, from now, i'll keep my problem away from all of u, i'll keep it in my heart, hmm, thanks fo ur help, advse n urself. thanks a lot.

with a big thankies,

November 7, 2008


can u all plan smue btol2. jan la keep chge tu la nieh la, penatt la. da la bg idea cum ta gune, i da tanak bg pape idea da.


November 1, 2008

Just For U My Great Best Friend.

yestrday u call me n u said u're very very very fine. but just now, ur lil bro amir call me. n u're in icu. ohh my goodness. i know u're sick when u call me. but u just say u're fine and dun worry bout u. how can im not worry bout u dear, u are my evrything! how should i be lyk nothing happen? when i had a flu pn u da riso sgt. nieh apatah lg u yg tak sedarkan diri?

i wish i can hold ur hand now, and say that how i really love u. luna takowt nk byg kn future dear.. takowtt sgt.. only God know.. i wish im there beside u now, and i want to tell u to be strong. ntaa. i know u dun want me to see ur pale face evrytym when u sick, so u smile evntgh u in pain. i remember, when u're sick in 26Dec 2006. we sing a lot of song, and u cry.. and when i ask u y u're crying my lil lovely friend, u ckp u'll miss this moment. but i know u're in pain, but u dun want to show it to me. but y syg? u tanak sgt shre ur pain wif me. i want to shre ur pain so u're not feel the pain. );

please, blek sni.. i want to be at ur side. afte u oprte, u trus blek yeh. i need u here. n i want to be wif u syg. pleasee! kte da promise nk clbrte bday ssme kn? i miss u laa. Amir, please take care of ur sis fo me. cuz i cant go there. if there is no paper fo d whole week i will be there. evntgh mahall. but u want me to be there afte ur oprtion.. so i will here waiting news from u syg.

sorry again, nieh da 13times when u're sick im not there. huhh, miera.. be strong keh, afte d oprtion, u'll be fine kn? u blek sni patpat. i realli want to give my bigg hug to u now! last word from u ystrday is, alwys be strong and dun cry cry fo u. but i cant stop them, but fo u, i will try to be strong dear, but u must be d strongest one! oke.

miera, u love this colour kn?

today notes ; miera, i just want u fine.

with a lott of tears,
ur hopeless friend.

October 31, 2008

Teeth-ly Smile. :B

i just receive cmmnt from seyha.

"hey girlfriend.. just read ur blog.. u noe wat.. banyak btul stress n tense.. hv u ever ask urself? when is the last tym u smile, laugh n felt happy with the whole of ur heart.. ur beautiful face look awful when u're stressed out u noe? smile now.. let everything go away.. just noe this.. whenever u think u're alone.. there always someone.. at least remember Allah.. we cant see Him.. but He's there.. talk to Him.. mnarilah dan terus tertawa.. walau dunia xseindah syurga.. bsyukurlah pd yg kuasa.. cinta kita di dunia.. smile now.. sorry if i ever make u cry.."

meh i jwb smue uh..

the last tym i smile, laugh and felt happy wif all my heart is, when i got a phone from miera 38 minute pass. Dun worry i've my guardian angel who will make me smile, laugh n happy. I slu jek smile n laugh wif my heart. ntahh. bak kte nidji,

menarilah dan terus tertawa,
walau dunia tak seindah syurga,
bersyukurlah pada yang kuasa,
cinta kita di dunia.

so, i learn from this song. i dun eva care bout ppl. i just care bout myself, n now. i stand as LUNA again.n i neve regret to have such as that lyf befo. becoz i learn from mistake n i wish i m not live in such of that situation again. dun worry hani, seyha n all. im just fine. i da biase ALONE, so i mcm da fine je ngn situation nieh. (: memang pena 1 day luna rse cum realli tired to be alone, but credit fo hani cuz there when i need sum1. evntgh we neve meet. but she try to undrstnd me. afta i talked wif her, i realized how shld i be sad n alone. at least when no 1 there wif me, there is sum1 who still care. (; mybe seyha, fara, u dunno me yet. but i takesa bcuz i no need to undrstnd. enough if u be my good friend. luna da ckup feel gud. n u all tapaya la mcm nk phm sgt luna.bcuz u'll never understnd me.

so, d conclusion is, im ordinary gurl who r no need to be understnd. enough if u tak break my heart.. tu je da ckup. please.. dun hurt me. to seyha n fara; thank coz being my good friend. (: and to hani ; thanks cuz when i need sum1. u noe wat, now yg luna leh share n undrstnd me here is mieya. but she is in the hostel. so i cannt cntct wif her. but at least i found hani, (; n again please dun undrstd me afta u all read this blog, bcuz t i akn rse laen.. so let it go jee. n again i wish thankies to u all. (:


with all my heart,
luna. <3

Crying day.

yesterday is my crying day ohh. huhh. i cry bcoz i cant carry chemstry. im so stupid. i worry bout my result. evntgh i noe, i've thrown my Mr. Worry, but i dunno y kept worry bout d result. im not throw my Mr. Worry in exmination.gahhh.the very big thankies to my guardian angel. (: cikSalehuddin. he try to give d best advce fo me evntgh he is not good in mtvated ppl nieh. but he still try. (; thanks abg!i noe chemistry is quite tough. but i'll try d best! bia la klw fail pn.i least i try my best en. (:


n now, pe yg i nk ckp.hmm.aahha!i know, indie band that i love. (: . i do love bunkface. very very very love.hahaha.i want to buy their EP. but i dunno whre i can find it. duhh. :( hahaha.

luna is sumone who r love the lyric and then bru strt love the song. (: if d lyrc bermakna n indah. i'll love that song evntgh lots of ppl say it not sedap n bla bla bla.idc oke.i love what i love la.

hve u heard The Official song?hidup kita? gagaga.i do love the song!sgt bermakna fo me. :) come and listen to this song.

Hidup Kita by The Official.

Kemanakah perginya,
Teman-teman setia?
Suka duka, gelak ketawa,
Tiada lagi bernyawa.

Oh! yang tinggal,
Hanya sisa hidup remaja
Membawa kita ke dunia yang nyata

Tak ku kesali apa yang kulalui
Teguh dibalut memori

Bersama menempuh segalanya
Berganding sentiasa menuju puncak hidup kita
Yang telah dibina

Kemanakah perginya,
Teman-teman setia?
Suka duka, gelak ketawa,
Tiada lagi bernyawa

Oh! kenangan bersama
Hanya tinggal di minda
Memjadi pegangan hidup yang penuh makna
Bawa kembali yang telah disemadi
Tak usah lagi bermimpi
Dan kita kan bersama semula

Kembalikan cahaya,
Nyawakan semula impian yang telah dibina.

try to understnd the verse. u'll find d real meaning of this song. :)

same goes to Bunkface ; they have a very beautiful lyrics. all of their song are realli great fo me.

come n listen to thiss too.

Situasi by Bunkface.

Diskriminasi menjatuhkan aku
Reputasi kini menjadi bisu
dan aku , ku layu

Mengharapkan sesuatu yang baru
itulah impian aku

Dan bila kau menghilang
Musnah la, musnah impian
tuk menggapai bintang
terangi hidup ku
Ku mahu kau tahu
engkaulah, destinasiku
dalam ingatanku .. oh oh oh…

Kerana diri ini tak daya lagi
menempuh hidup yang ku temui
dan aku , ku tunggu .. oh oh oh

Mengharapkan sesuatu yang baru
itulah impian aku

C/O dan C/O lagi… :)


today notes ; I want Bunkface's EP.Please!

with hopeful smile,

lunaa. (;

October 30, 2008

pagi yg laparr.

today, luna pose. damn!bru kol 12 da lapa.tu ah da lme bykk sgt mkn.tgok da ta biase pose.duhh.sakett..mlm td en. i mimpi baekk punye la. ;D tawu mimpi pe?jimmy. Jimmy Shanley. takan takenal?aduyaii.pape je la. tp luna ta sngke luna leh mimpi beliau.kahkahkah.sumpa klaka ohh mimpi uh. :D

bia je la,

hmm.nk cte pe lg eyh.u noe i realli intrsted ngn book. i cant live without book.but i neve show to ppl la. for what en?(: hmm.i got 5 fav book now. i cant live without all of the books!top of fav book is ;

1. Life is an Open Secret, Think About It by Sis Zabrina A. Bakar.

2. Laskar Pelangi by Andrea Hirata.

3. Sang Pemimpi by Andrea Hirata.

4. Life is an Open Secret, You, Me and We by Sis Zabrina A. Bakar.

5. Edensor by Andrea Hirata.

As u can see en. I love all the Andrea Hirata work.He is very gud writer.fo me la. (; fo me, he write the story from his heart. n that make me feel good when i read the book. ((: all of Andrea Hirata work is true story. so i love the book la! Same goes to Sis Zabrina.i give credit to all her work. (: her work chnge me a lot.to b d good "hamba Allah". (;

mama, i nk g Indonesia!i want to watch Laskar Pelangi. Please, I begging u!

my english are fucking damn bad.
so tapaya la gelak bile bce.

with a teeth-ly smile,
luna. (:

October 29, 2008

Trust Your Lord.

The Story about Yesterday, Today and Tomorrow.
by ; Sis Zabrina A.Bakar.
especially for my Hunny. (:

That day, I had to go to see a friend. Since the meeting place was in the middle of the city, I decided to use the train instead of driving to avoid getting stuck in the traffic. As I boarded the train, I saw most seats had been taken, except for a few, so, I decided on one and sat down.

I looked around me and saw bored faces waiting to reach their destinations. But there was this one face in front of me whom my eyes were glued to. The woman looked so distracted and distraught. Obviously, her mind was fully occupied with something serious, like a heavy burden. She was just staring blankly in front of her. Her body was there, but her mind was definitely somewhere else!

I just couldn't help but wonder why she looked that way. Was her family in trouble?Was anyone sick?Perhaps she was facing financial difficulties. Allahu a'lam (Allah knows best).

I remember one of Allah's verses that can be translated as ;

(We do not impose on any self any more than it can stand. With Us there is a
Book which speaks the truth, They will not be wronged.)
(Al-Mu'minun 23:62)

How I wish I could tell her this. Dont be so worried. Allah will not test you more than you can bear. But that would be rather presumptuous, dont you think? Perhaps she knew this verse. But then again, what if she didn't know? Wouldn't this verse get rid of her worries and bring her great relief? Relief to know that whatever test and trials she may have been facing were actually bearable, because Allah shall never impose on anyone anything more than what that person can handle.

Caliph 'Ali ibn Abi Talib (may Allah be pleased with him) once said ;

The one who longs for Paradise will rush towards good deeds;
The one who dreads Hell will put an end to his vices;
The one who has firm conviction in (the imminent arrival of) death will lose
all his passions; and
The one who really knows the dunya will find disasters easy to bear.

"The one who really knows the dunya will find disasters easy to bear." What did he mean by this? I needed to crack the wise words of our Prophet's son-in-law, who was the husband of Lady Fatimah, as well as one of the companions of the Prophet (peace be open him) guaranteed Paradise.

Well dunya a.k.a "this world", is temporary abode, not permanent. It is a place to test the believers and seprate the faithful from the rebellious. The higher the iman (faith) of a person, The bigger the test will be. Nothing in this world will last, and there will be the day when everythings will be destroyed - the Day of Judgement. Our real life will then be in Hereafter, Paradise.

No wonder Caliph 'Ali said that. Now I understand. If we know that, then whatever we face here, no matter how bad disaster, is only temporary. Just be patient with every test and so on enough we will, in sha' Allah, receive His bounty and rewards in a place that is permanent. Forever. Eternal.

Listen to what Allah said here,

(Or did you imagine that you were going to enter the Garden without God knowing
those among you who had struggled and knowing the steadfast?)
(Al-'Imran 3:142)

So, the reason why Allah trie us is actually to see if we are qualified fo His jannah- just like when we have to sit for an entrance examination before enrolling into prestigious institution. If we pass the test and make a cut, we are in. Otherwise, there is no place for us there. It is very fair, dont you think?

Subhan Allah, what a attractive way of thinking!

As I thought further, I realized that Caliph 'Ali's wise words aside, this feeling of worry is actually very destructive. It can make people be in a state of continuous depression, sadness, anxiety, and nervousness. It can affect someone quite negetively - both psychologically and physically. I am sure many would agree with me right?

No wonder Corrie Tan Boom said this,

Worry does not empty tomorrow of its sorrow; it empties today of its strength.

This is so true. People who worry are in state of hopelessnedd at all the times, which may result in loss of intrest in the future. Thier future. Why? because we, as humans, definately do not know what is going to happen to us later. Therefore, we can never be sure of anything - not even what will happen to us in next two seconds. Tick, Tock. Yes, those two second,

So, what we suppose to do now in order to ensure that our minds are at peace? What needs to be done so that we can sleep peacefully at night, stop our palms from sweating all the time, and prevent our heart from racing unnecessarily?

This is what Allah told us,

( Says ; Nothing shall ecer happen to us except what Allah has ordained for us.
He is our Lord and in Allah let the believers put their trust.)
(At-Taubah 9:51)

In Him, we should all put all our trust.

Isn't it wonderful to have a rope to hang on to? To know that everything that happens to us has been ordained by Allah?This actually means that we hould not be suprised at all about anything that takes place. It has been planned and penned by Allah. It just that we dont know about it.

Now, let me ask you a question. If it is our Lord and Creator who has ordained this trial upon us, then, logically speaking, whom should we turn to when seeking help? If we have medical problems, do we go to see a banker? If we have a problem in understanding mathematics, do weseek the help of a language teacher?

Our beloved Massenger Muhammad (peace be upon him) left us with a prayer (du'aa') that he used to recite when dealing with worries about the future ;

"O Allah, correct my religious commitment, which is the fundation of my life,
and correct my wordly affairs in which is my livelihood,
and grant me good in the Hereafter to which is my return.
Make my life a means of accumulating good,
and make death a respire for me from all evil"

And he also said ;

"O Allah, for Your mercy I hope , so do not abandon me to myself even for a moment.
And correct all my affairs. There is no God but You."
(Abu Dawud and classed as hasan by al-Albani)

A perfect prayer for distressed soul, Subhan Allah.

Imagine...asking Allh to correct my worldly and spiritual matters, asking Allah not to abandon me, even for a second, to make my life in this world blessed with godness and make my death as relief for me from evil. Allah!

And, in the end, Allah syas that :

(And whosoever puts his trust in Allah, then He will suffice him..)
(At-Talaq 65 :3)

Of course, once we put our trust in Him, evrything else seems so small and trivial. He is Al- Barr (the Most Kind), The Source of Goodness..

How I wish we could tall have the same level of conviction as Caliph 'Umar below..

"I do not care in what state I wake up in the morning - whether it's good
or bad- since I do not know what is good for me and what is bad"

Just imagine how contented and peaceful his heart and mind were with such a level or trust in his Lord..

Let me share with you a poem I once read entitled Yesterday, Today, and Tomorrow :

Today is the tomorrow I worried about yesterday
And today was such a lovely day,
that I wondered why I worried about today yesterday
So today I am not going to worry about tomorrow
There may not be a tomorrow anyway
So today I am going to live as if there is no tomorrow
And I am going to forget about yesterday.

Today is the tomorrow I planned for yesterday
And nearly all my plans for today did not plan out the way I thought they would yesterday
So today I am forgetting about tomorrow and I will plan for today
But not too strenuously
Today I will stop to smell a rose
I will tell a loved one how much I love her
I will stop planning for tomorrow and plan to make today the best day of my life.

Today is the tomorrow I was afraid of yesterday
And today was nothing to be afraid of
So today I will banish fear of the unknown
I will embrace the unknown as a learning experience full of exciting opportunities
Today, unlike yesterday I will not fear tomorrow.

Today is the tomorrow I dreamed about yesterday
And some of the dreams I dreamt about yesterday came true today
So today I am going to continue dreaming about tomorrow
And perhaps more of the dreams I dream today will come true tomorrow.

Today is the tomorrow I set goals for yesterday
And I reached some of those goals today
So today I am going to set slightly higher goals for today and tomorrow
And if tomorrow turns out to be like today
I will certainly reach all of my goals one day!

Certainly, I will, in sha' Allah. Dont you just love the way this poem twists both your touge and your mind? It is beautifully penned by the unknown poet, who I think has put a lot of his time into observing and comtemplating life, ma sha' Allah.

So now, my freinds - a question for you and me. Is st worth worrying too much about tomorrow? because tomorrow is the yeasterday's today. And my today looks just fine and wonderful, Alhamdulillah.

Is yours so, too?If yes, then what we doing with "worry" sitting here with usIf no, then, still - why worry when tomorrow is brand new day!

Remember what Charles Schultz said once ;

Dont worry about the world coming to an end day today.Its already tomorrow in Australia.

So let us all my toss Mr. Worry out of the window, and out the window he should go. I have thrown away my "Mr. Worry" just a second ago. Is yours thrown out too? Come, let me help u... ;

Goodbye, Mr. Worry!

Doesn't that feel great? Totally!! Alhamdulillah...