"I wanted a perfect ending. Now I've learned, the hard way, that some poems don't rhyme, and some stories don't have a clear beginning, middle, and end. Life is about not knowing, having to change, taking the moment and making the best of it, without knowing what's going to happen next."

June 27, 2009

the bad part of my life.

Keputusan Peperiksaan Pertengahan Tahun 2009

Siti Zulaiha Uyub
5 Aman

Bahasa Melayu : 67
Bahasa Inggeris : 68
Mathematics : 68
Sejarah : 63
Agama Islam : 81
Biology : 56
Physics : 48
Chemistry : 45
English for Science and Technology : 58

Overall results ; 1A, 5B, 2C, 2D.

okai, this is my mid term result. terok kan? adoyyy. how can i improve? grrr. my parents start to bubling evryday, evry sec. hmm. now smue taley, i cant do this i cant do that, i cant go there and i cant go here. but i know, this is bcz they wanna see me at the university, get the scholarship. i'll get it lah ayah, mak. insya-Allah.

today notes ; i wanna be dentist, and i want to get scholarship from MARA, JPA or Sime Darby.


June 19, 2009

childhood. (:

There is a garden in every childhood, an
enchanted place where colors are brighter, the air softer,
and the morning more fragrant than ever again.
~Elizabeth Lawrence

ohh, all the memories, i miss you. ahaha. i dun want to remember my childhood memories actually. because, i've a very stupid and silly memories. and i really hate it. but sumtyme i felt lyk, ohh. i want my childhood tyme again. and i had a chance to change it to be better. alagkah bagus nye if, there was a day i mean not a day, a year lyk seratus harijadi. i've plenty of time to make my childhood tyme is the best memories ever. hahaha.
my bestf when i was 7 is, the whole class kot. yela, dlu there is no gap kan. boys or gurls smue kawan. but i close wif ariff, akmal, syafiqah ( we're fren till now), syaza, atiqah, maznur, and spe ntah. but i do miss them now. i dnt hve their cntct. hmm, when i was 8 and 9, syaza, asyraff and akmal (z) is my bestf. mcm best, syaza and i love to berangan to be pembaca berite. mcm tutt. hahaha. and and akmal and asyraff more love to be astronomy and whatsoever lah. more towards the science.
when im 10, i still in the same class, amanah and at that tyme syaza move to the mulia. asyraff and akmal move to another school. putus takat tu je. hmm. then, kawan ngn zulaikha, syazwan, azmi, ehh. ntah spe2 lah lg, but byk. ahaha. when i was 11 and 12, i in mulia. and my bestf at that tyme iman aisyah, and anis syafiqah, + syafiqah and azmi. agak best but ntah lah, i hate to egt all the memories sebab there is a lot of silly things, hahaha.

to iman aisyah ahmad nasaruddin,
how can i delete u from my life. i cant dear. i love to be your fren.
and now, idk lah kan. and if i still have choice, i'll choose u to be
my forever fren eventough we're not lyk befo. goodluck there! (;

to anis syafiqah,
i will remember u forever. i love u too eventough
now, mcm tabape kenal lahh. btw, goodluck too. (:

to syafiqah,
weh, make sure ta lost contact okeh. i love
to be ur fren lah buddy! be a gud girl and i noe,
u'll get someone who r much better than him. (:

today notes ; omg, i miss them so much. waaa. phone, can u please.. hmm.


June 18, 2009

13 Jun 2009.

* My 3rd sis engagement.


June 8, 2009


"When we honestly ask ourselves which person in our lives mean the most to us, we often find that it is those who, instead of giving advice, solutions, or cures, have chosen rather to share our pain and touch our wounds with a warm and tender hand. The friend who can be silent with us in a moment of despair or confusion, who can stay with us in an hour of grief and bereavement, who can tolerate not knowing, not curing, not healing and face with us the reality of our powerlessness, that is a friend who cares."
Henri Nouwen.

when i read this quote, i felt lykk, hmm. i donno who are my friend now, semakin jauh ngan my own bestf. i felt so far from em. i dont want to be lyk that. i love to be wif u. i mean to be ur bff. forever and now, i dunno what happen. seems lyk i haf lost a lot of my friends. did i be so poyo? did i too sensitive? did i say sumthing which is wrong and hurted u? did i be too manje and to childish? ohh GOD. i really donno it. hmm. whenever i cry, i owez hopes that she know that im crying eventhough i not tell anyone. mybe it just a hope kn? sometime cant be lyk that too. but i keep on trying to be more sensitive to ur feelings. i tried. hmm. btw, did u know when i heard "i miss you" by Miley kan. i cant stop thinking of u. hows u there? r u doing fine? and whenever i heard "True Friend" by Miley too, i' ll cry. yes u know that im so cengeng. i cried. hmm. kawan, if there was a gap between us, can we together try to make the gap fading away? hmm. i donno what to say because all of this, im very tired VERY TIRED but i'll never GIVE UP to makes gap between us go.

I'LL NEVER GIVE UP because i want and i WANT our Friendship LAST FORVER.

today notes ; ku ingin terbang jauh. jauh dari segalanya. hilang, hilang semua.


June 7, 2009

making me sad.

*menangis tersedu sedan.

hello, do u ever think i haf heart or not? hello, im GIRL, and fyi, gurls are SENSITIVE. dont u know it? blah gyle. why do u keep on hurt me ha? who r u actlly?friends or my enemy? gahh. i want to be ur friend but u bcme a backstabber. wat DOSE je. hee. penat and very tired okey. hmm. big questions at my stonny head now, why do u keep on hurt me eventhough u know it hurt me so much. kawan, we're done lah kot. after this, i wont find u whenever i haf a problem, bored and watsoever. thanks fe all u gve to me. luna kenang tu sampy bile2, i promised. hmm.

today notes ; luna tetap sayang u, walaw byk u wat luna saket. i hope u brubah cpt2.


June 4, 2009

marah dan dimarahi?

hmm, today my mum and my dad starts to bubling again and again and again wif the same topic. "adek tak study". okeh, now, i've to say, im so sorry mum and dad, idk y i be lyk this. i felt so damn lazy now, damn lazy. hee. Siti Zulaiha bt Uyub, saya benci anda apabila anda sangat malas, i hate myself. grr. i keep on thinking hows my upcoming results and hows my SPM results. to be honest, i dun think i can ahieve more than 6A's. but i must get more than that. at least 9A's. hee. malass. can u go away? i hate it lahh. u keep on coming plak. tasuke tawuuu. luna nieh ske ngadap tv and ignore her study table. tatao keh how hard ayah find money fe me. to pay fe my tusyen and my stuff, luna nieh tawu nak senang jee. balas la sayang kan? dun make them sad. from today, i promised to be GOOD GIRL. insya- Allah. i want to be the best. i want to stop fe watching tv and do alot of revision more. i know its quite hard. but i'll try. i will seldom online. because, takot kne grounded. and and and, pray fe my SPM eyh. doa luna jadi rajen yeh? luna na g further study kt Bandung right? so i have to work hard fe it! u can do it. ahaha. and again, mum and dad, im so sorry if my upcoming results will be so terok. i'll make it better next time. JANJI okeyh. insya-Allah luna tunaikan.

today notes ; ohh, malas anda tersingkir kerana sikap rajen mula sedikit sebanyak timbul.