Miss Independent

Hello and Assalamualaikum ppls! :)

Did you miss me, did you? I know you do. Hikhikhik. ;) Well, honestly, this week is the worst week ever. I hate it btw. I have a tons of lab report which I hate the most and I have no idea how to do it. And also assignmentsssss. And also presentations. Got two presentations next week. And yeah, havent done the slide yet. T.T Now tell me, budak environmental relaks sangat ke? -.-' I hate when some people says environmental was so easy kan, got no assignment got no test got no pressure. *hangguklu* Try to respect other course please. Please dont think your course is the scariest the hardest the best compared to others, its annoying you know. All the course have their pro and cons. Haruslah course tu wujud diatas sebab tertentu untuk kepentingan dan kegunaan tertentu. Understand me?

My mother taught me that Ive to respect others, if I want they respect to me since I was a little girl. I live with that words everyday. Well, mybe sometime I didnt apply it in my daily life but always remind myself to respect others. I did. Seriously. Haha. My mother is awesome, she always taught me to be a better person when I grow up. :) Well I know, your mum too. Haha.

Simple example, when your roomates are studying, and you the only one who want to sleep. And you told them to turn off the light. For me, something is wrong with it. Why dont you try to sleep in light, since your roomates all still studying? What if it happens everyday? They have to study in the dark, or in dim light. Well, they will rabun, they wont have healthy eyes just like me. And they will rabun because of you. Only because of you yes you you you YOU! *ohh, betul ke example aku ni ade kena mengena dengan respect? * 

Haha. Like seriously lah wey, respect others. When someone is solat, then you have to stop singing or anything lagha that you do. Please respect them who are praying. Respect is two way communication. When you respect others, the others will respect you. Not only with someone older, or anything. To everyone please. :) Youll know how the great feelings that you will feels when someone do respect them as you do. :) Believe in me. Respect its the most important things in our daily life. Without it, you are nothing. ;)

Saya janji akan respect others after this, awak bila lagi? ;)

Today Notes : Salam Maal Hijrah peeps. Semoga tahun ini adalah tahun yang lebih baik dari tahun tahun yang lepas. :) 

dontcryforme,

lunasayang. 

Stop and Stare

Assalamualaikum and hello peeps. :)

I miss you people. Apa kabarmu? Hak hak hak. Hello again. :)

We all have a plenty of choices in life. Every second of our life is actually have a million of choices. For example, when you cross the road, there is a lot of probabilities. One you will cross it when the traffic light shows red. Or you just cross it without thinking all those probabilities? Get me? Haha. I actually dont know how to express what in my heart now. Ive a lot to say when it comes to the choices things. Well, because Ive gone through a lot of that moment. Moment when you have to make a big decision with a lot of choices. I bet all of you have been through this too. Haruslah kan because youre normal people just like me. :)

Well, jujurnya ibu bapaku sangat nak aku jadi seorang CIKGU, :) Ohh, I mean actually they want me to be doctor, dentist or pharmacist at first, but Im not qualified at all to become that. Haha. For them, as a girl. CIKGU is the best career. Fyi, orang tuaku adalah orang lama. In their "future planning" for me, there is no engineering or architecture or accounting. Just those three professional career at the hospital and teacher. :)

I prefer to say my future career is environmentalist. InsyaAllah. :) I know my parents, they dont know about this course so much, and they dont have confident whether this course will give me a good career to me or not. Because they never think of other courses, I know mereka sangat risau dengan saya. They think I made a wrong decision, which well for me its a right decision. This is what I want, to be an environmentalist. :) They do support me eventhough they dont really show it up. They scared I might fall and couldnt stand again. And I give up. Dont worry ayah and mak, I will never give up. Thank you so much, Ayah and Mak. I'll do my best and prove to both of you, the path that Im taken is the right path. :) 

Today Notes : The wrong decision can always be corrected. Because sometime the wrong decision will lead us to the better ones. :)

imissmydadandmom,

lunasayang.

Start All Over Again.

Hello and assalamualaikum. :) 

Its been quite a long time since I last wrote here. Hello again, and I miss you people. :)

Well, yes, everything changes. Ive changed, like a lot mybe? Haha. Umm, Im no longer jobless girl. Hihi, Im officially be a part of one of university. And as a their student of course. Guess what courses did I took. Try la teka. :D Emm, well Im environmentalist-to-be. *inshaAllah* Okayy. Emm, I dont have a word to say. Haha. Well, I barely know what is interesting about the University life and such things. For me, nothing interesting yet? Screw me up. Aha! I kindda try to love this place but yeah, still trying and yes, Im trying my best to fit in this new life. Hmm. 

Everything changed, just as I. Kadang kadang saya rasa Im not in the right path. The path that currently Im taking is something that I dont have guts on it. Like seriously, i never wonder myself being that ".." things. My life now messed up actually. I didnt understand the lecture, I cant do the tutorial, I didnt score well. Well yeah, Im not someone who are really good in the particular subject. I just a girl who love physics with all her heart but that girl didnt really score it well. Im that girl. I grew in the family who thinks if you didnt score A for your math, youre kinda stupid lah. Im just an ordinary girl who has nothing special on herself. Ive a lot of WH question in my head now. Haha. Im the girl who has no confident in herself in any way pun. But, theres something that I believe on. God will help me kalau saya berusaha dan yakin padaNya. :) 

Even saya rasa, Im not qualified of being that * referringtothecourseimtaking* and I think I made a wrong step. But I know one thing, I cant turn back. There is no turning point for me to turn back. So saya akan teruskan berlari dan jika saya terjatuh saya pasti bangun semula, jika saya tak mampu berlari, saya akan berjalan, dan terus berjalan tanpa melihat ke belakang. :) Sebab saya tahu, evethough at a certain point, I might fall, and failed. But if I turn back and try to start all over again, itu akan menghabiskan masa saya. If I stand up again and get my momentum back, I will have no regret atleast because I know, Ive tried my best to be the best. :) 

Today notes : Jangan patah balik kerana ketidakyakinan awak. Yakin lah, Allah akan membantu hamba hambaNya yang berusaha dan Dia sentiasa merencanakan sesuatu yang baik untuk kita. 

imisstheoldmomentumthativebefore,

lunasayang

Long Distance.

Cik Q selalu cakap, saya ni kedekut sangat. Kedekut senyuman. :) Haha. Yeah, youre right. Hehe. I dont know why, but semua orang mostly akan label myself as sombong. Tehehe. Sorry. Saya memang tak pandai senyum. Kat rumah pun kan, selalu buat senyum comel je. Nanti kalau buat dekat luar orang bagi makan kaki pulak kang. Comel sangat. Hahaha. Tapi tapi kawan kawan. Saya sedang meng-practice senyum untuk gambar raya tahun ni. :B Nantikan gambar raya tahun ni okeyy. :D

Kawan kawan, senyum tu kan sedekah. Saya tau anda tau tu. Jangan la kita mengkedekutkan diri kita nak senyum ye. :) Senyum la paling senang. Kalau tade duit nak sedekah. *mcm saya ni. penganggur tegar. Boleh la buat amal lain seperti memurahkan senyuman yang sebelum ni saya selalu mengmahalkan ia. Dulu kan, saya selalu rasa pelik nak senyum kat anonymous. Tapi sekarang, cool la. Kadang kadang orang tu yang pelik tengok saya tetiba senyum walaupun tak kenal. Hehe. Okey, saya dah berubah sikit ye kawan kawan. :)

Lepas tu kan, kawan kawan. Kalau kita pergi pasar malam kan, selalu ada orang mintak sedekah. Buta la kudung la anak yatim la masjid la. Kita selalu la nak persoalkan 'eh, dia ni betul ke? ke sindiket ni.' Tak dinafikan, saya juga kadang kadang terfikir jugak mcm tu. Tapi satu je saya nak cakap. Niat sedekah itu penting. Niat je la kita bagi ni untuk dia buat sesuatu di jalan Allah. Tak payah nak persoalkan kesahihan nya. Janji kita dah ikhlaskan diri. Lain la kalau dia memang dah cakap ini tabung nak buat disko. Jangan la kau gatal gatal nak letak duit kat situ kan. Banyak lagi tabung masjid tabung surau kau boleh letak.

Masa kat hentian Seremban dua tahun lepas kut. Ada sorang pakcik ni bagi lecture kat budak mintak sedekah ni. Kalau lecture baik tapi jugak. Ni tengking. Kesian budak tu. Dia marah, dia cakap ni ade orang la yang suruh awak mintak sedekah kan. Blablabla. At that time, pakcik tu lecture depan surau. And aku berdiri and hanya mampu tengok. Aku sedihh sangat. Aku tau la pakcik tu ade niat baik, caring kat budak tu. Tapi jangan la marah. Tengking. Suara dia kuat. Aku yang jauh pun rasa nak nanges kena mcm tu. Aku tengok budak tu kuis kuis kaki. Hmm. Sedih kan. Apela salahnya kalau nak cakap tu nada pilihla yang sesuai. Sampai sekarang aku ingat setiap dialog pakcik tu. Pakcik, jangan buat macam tu. Tak baik tau. Awak yang lain juga. Ikhlas kan hati semasa menderma banyak pahala tu. ;)

Okey kawan kawan, selamat menayangkan gigi awak selalu. :B

Todays Notes : Sepuluh malam terakhir. Selamat beramal. :)

iguessitwasnotenough,

lunasayang.

Sahabat. :)

Awak awak awak, nanti awak masuk U. Jangan lupa saya tau. 

I love you. Hihihi.

Waida. Fara. Mira

Nanti cmfrm kita susah nak jumpa.

Selamat maju jaya. *macam ayat dapat repotkad. Bahaha! 

Thanks for your craziness. :)

Again, I love you a lot. <3 <3

Today notes : Selamat berpuasa. Hampir ke sepuluh malam terakhir. Alhamdulillah. :)

whathurtthemost,

lunasayang

For The First Time

Hello and hye. :)

You and me. Things changed a lot. I've changed a lot too. To the better one perhaps (?) Thanks fe changing me. Awak dah going somewhere chasing your dreams that you dreamed of since you 10. Optical engineering. Semoga awak grad cepat and belanja luna makangg baby Tutti Frutti eh. Awak grad 1 sem befo luna. Tak adil betul. Haha. Btw, goodluck my dear! I heart you and our friendship always, darl!


And I always remember this date. Haha.
1 January 2005. 1 April 2005. 26 Dec 2007

Today Notes : You and me , both have changed a lot.

youandme,

lunasayang.

Im back ! (?)

Hello and hye people,

Im back ! 

Changed my template to the simple one. 

:)

Nice to be back btw. 

:')

happy ending.

Duhh, baru saya tersedar. I havent touch any books since Im home. -.- What happen to meee? Saya ada banyak sangat kerja rumah dan assignment. :/ Sempat ke nak buat? Kenapa cuti mesti sekejab? Kenapa mesti ade kerja. Kenapa saya malas sangat sangat ni? Kan azam usia 18 nak jadi budak rajin, nak dapat 4flat. Macam mana nak dapat 4flat kalau awak malas macam ni luna. Final kan nak dekat dah. Tak takut ke? Awak da la dah kena marah dengan cegu sebab awak teruk. Tak sedar lagi ka? ): Boleh tak jangan buat keja bertangguh? Boleh tak buat semua kerja tanpa mengomel, tanpa bertangguh2? Susah sangat ke nak berubah luna?

Saya nak mintak maaf dekat diri saya sebab saya tak mampu nak berubah. Mintak maaf banyak banyak. Tapi saya nak cakap kat diri saya, yang saya sedang mencuba untuk berubah.


towardsabettergirl,
lunasayang.

You are beautiful.

I fall in love with this voice. RAWRR!

withlove,

lunasayang,

Breathe.

Hello and hye :)

While waiting fe tommorow, I feels like I want to write something here.

2010 passed with a good and great ends. Its end beautifully fe me. :) Okey, back to 2010. I got my SPM result which made my parent upset. 6A's je. And I failed to put myself into any university, I didnt get a UPU offer from anywhere even fe the second intake. So, I went to matriculation which its the only choice that I have at that time. I cry alot here, I cant really get into this, the study life but I got something that makes me smile here. Physics ; subject that I love the most since the first time I learned it :) I always thank to Mr Physics because, he is the reason why I can keep holding on here. Eventhough Im not good enough to him, he alwyas be the reason why I dont step out from this matriculation. :) I LOVE YOU MR PHYSICS. ♥♥♥

Living here in KMNS is not and never be easy. Thank GOD I found a lot of great friends here. Says hello to Waida, Fara, and Mira. :') They are the best among the best friends that I got here. InsyaAllah our relationship will last long. They are good friends, eventhough Im not a good friend. Thanks again, I dont think there is anyone else who want to be my friends. HAHA. Sorry fe being so annoying and irritating. Sorry, Im not a good listener or even a good friends. I tried, and I hope you see Iam trying to be  good friend to all of you, :/ Sorry, Im not a good teacher or a good tutor. I hate when I cant make someone understand what Im trying to explain, thats why I prefer saying no, bacause Im not good enough to teach you. Its hurt when I saw you cant understand what am I trying to explain, I think I make you more confuse because Im not good in any subject pn, You should ask someone who are much better than me. So sorry. Its the reason why. Thanks fe being my good friends my dear!
I ♥♥♥♥♥♥ you so much kawan. :')

Till this time, I still miss home.*homesick never ends.:DDDD

Today notes; I might not be an exellent student here, I might not a extraordinary student here, but, I promised, I'll try my best here. :)

thebestwayisgoodbye,

lunasayang.