when stupid become stupider. = ="

hey, its me, Luna. (:

hmm, cik NFK, i dont have words. 

i think my communication skill getting worse and worse since i just sit doing nothing at home. seriously i feel so stupid now. like i never know anything. yesterday i ask my babang, what is K in periodic table. bodoh tak bodoh? K tu kan potassium. grr. i need to refresh my brain before it getting worse. well, its so damn worse now.then tadi try to help someone with her addmath stuff. Thank God, i still remember to do that. progression jee kot. if she ask me trigo, im gonna die because i dont think i will get the answer. yea, in this mean time. to be honest, i miss school life. everyday with a lott of hw. *im not someone who alwys fnshed hw. ntah, i dunno what am i missing at school. mybe it just a regret for being just a stupid and lazy student duludulu. stop it luna, u sound so bodoh. = ="

and now, i cant stop thinking of my upcoming result. goshh, im so damn scare! takutt gyle na mati. yea, i know its sound HA HA HA HA fe those yang pandai. fe those yang 'kurang' pandai like me, its like hari pembalasan. duhh, i wish i can turn back time. hmm, its not because of the memories with my deary bestf, but i want to study again. -,- sudah terhantuk baru terngadah. now i know my mom and my dad want me to get the best so i can go anywhere, layak je mohon semua. hmm,actually i have a lil problem now, i dont know my hala tuju right after this. macam orang hidup tade pengangan. terumbang ambing. macam tu la dalam hati luna sekarang. terumbang ambing buut not because tade pegangan but tade citecite. some of my friend have started their further study now, sedangkan luna still on the same place without any changes. im so so so so jelous with them. honestly, im so envy to them. *sigh.

please, get me out of this feeling. i cant stop thinking of my future, seriously i dun think my upcoming result is not good as others especially my babang. huhh. some one please get me a counselor. i neva thinking about goin to see a counselor. memang tak pernah because im not interested, i hate PMD that we all have to attend every year. there is not a lot of diff since im form 1 till i finished my form 5. sorry cegu, i dun mean to hurt ur feeling. mybe its because of me yang memang ta minat untuk di touchingtouching kan hati. ur program is good.its true. but its the same thing every year. *enough, i dun want to hurt anyone. so now im so terhegeh hegeh searching fe counselor. anyone want to be counselor to me? = =" yea, now the only person who i can talk about this is my babang. he always told me that i can do it, there nothing to worry about my result. HA HA HA. *sigh. 

what is the best job fe me?

anyone can get the answer fe me.

hadiah misteri menanti anda. *stupid.

today notes ; rainbow rainbow. :D

itsallaboutme,

lunasayang.

yea, i falling in love with you.

*title entry tade kenemngene dengan the old raksase hijau.


heyy, hello.

mamat, 

you are not my raksase hijau anymore.

because you're someone belonging. *salah ek ayat?

aaa, you belong to someone.

now you're e's or i's. *not so sure her name i or e.

bukan raksase hijau like i used to call you dulu.

i know when you love someone, you really mean it.

konon big obstacle laa ape laa. lastlast, ended up with happy ending jugak. (:

congratulation. *evntgh awak tabtau luna pn.

may SHE love you as you love her. 

and taking care of ur heart yang sometime, brittle. -,-

wish you last long long long. 

today notes ; abang, get well soon oke! rindu na men kejakeja. (:

ps; cik Raimy Shafiq, saye da buat post

yang bernada normal and happy. :B

sometimeineedyourhandtohold,

lunasayang.

itsTRUE.

i cried a lot lot lot.

sampai mate sepet sepet sesepetnye.

i cant let you go.

i dont know why.

i dont have the answer.

haveitoldyou?

hello, hye. 

lepaking wif mak, talking about my future husband. 

luna ; if the only if jodo adik dengan mat saleh?

mom ; mak memang tak suke dan tak berkenan. cubecube la kawen ngn orang tuu. tawu la adik nanti.

luna ; haa. kang adik kawen betulbetul baru tawu.

mom ; kawen la kawen. nanti susa jangan bisengbiseng nak cari mak. mase tu mak bukan boleh tolong ape.

luna ; mak takesa kalaw adik susa?

mom ; kau yang cari masalah. *ade pulak kan cakap mcm tu.

luna ; mak tanak yang mate biru? hijau?

mom ; buat ape klw tade agame. huh. *emosional la pulak. -,-

luna ; dont worry la mak, i was hoping fe Indonesian.

mom ; hah? kat tepitepi rumah pun melambak. HAHAHA.

luna ; -,- mak nieh, tepitepi rumah tu? pleasee. im looking fe Indonesian yang mix ngn dutch oke. bukan muke tak mandi. mcm tu.

mom ; hahaha. okay, klw adik nak tu mak kasi. pastikan adik kaye. nanti bley selalu bawak mak pegi Indonesia. *serious?

luna ; of cz! i love you! <3

HAHAHAHA.

* menggedik nak kawen. -,-

today notes ; rindu Mia. :(

sometimeiwishyouwilllykme,

lunasayang.

merry-go-round.

i miss you. yeah. you. 

jum pegi maen merry go round.

 

the only thing that can make me smile when there is something stuck in my head.

this thing take me away from the stupidous problemo. 

its spinning and spinning take me away from this world. 

laju. angin. buat luna lupe semua. buat luna dalam dunia luna sendirian.

menangis macam tade lagi hari esok untuk ditangiskan. pathetic betul.

ade orang yang tolak supaye ianya spinning.

kemudian pabila sudah laju, beliau duduk menghadap luna sambil berputar.

he sat there and see me cried. he doesnt say anything. 

when its start to be slow again, he stand and make it spinning again. 

he keep on repeating the same thing. make it spinning and then sat in front of me.

until there is no tears. 

beliau memperlahankannya sambil berbicara dengan lembut. 

i didnt say what am i crying for. but he always know how to comfort me.

the merry go round still spinning in the slow motion. 

and its gonna stop at the time when i stand up and menjerit sekuat hati.

then everything going back to normal. as usual.

merry go round tu menjadi mangsa kami lagi. kali ini dengan penuh gelak ketawa.

dan seribu senyuman penuh erti. (:

today notes ; i miss you a lot lot lot. i wish you here now. because merry go round that i ride not gonna stop when there is no you. it keep on spinning. please be here beside me. i need you.

*my english going to be worst worst and worst.

spinningagainagainandagain,

lunasayang.

ilovethewayyousmile.

saya mungkin akan mati kebosanan.

tadi ade dengar dengar kabar berite, budakbudak SBP banyak dah dapat tawaran macammacam. seperti UTP. wahh, im so damn jealous. -,- tu la luna, spe sruh dulu ta blaja pepandai, tengok. hee. serious ohh. memang sangat sangat jealous. can you imagine how easy they are. no need to cmpte bagai nak rak dengan thousands of student dah. okai, saya tasuke dengar berita ini. no im not dengki. just, WAHHH. kagum bcause they are soo pandai, and perjalanan dorg nak mintak shcolarship sangat la mudah. and some of them da memang dapat dah. luna laa masih ditempat yang lame tanpa sebarang perubahan. i've to compete with a thousands of student. and great news yang menambahkan kegusaran hati. smue scholarship nak yang xtve koko and pandai btutur. which duedue luna tade. well, macam da tawu, i wont get. da la luna, stop berangan benda yang susa na di capai boleh? hee. tak boleh kott.

i dont know, i cant stop thinking of it. i really want it. my abang says amek Actuarial science a.k.a sains akuari. i know, semua orang cakap susah nak mati. but my abang says, scholarship dye oke, plus ta banyak org berani amek. so, taya na cmpte ngn ramai sangat. but cabaran ny chinese laa sebab biase ny if, they are not in pure account, dorg akan amek sains akuari. hmm. and orang cakap jugak perempuan jarang amek this course sebab susa sangat. and ble dengar semuasemua tu buat aku jadi raguragu nak amek nieh. add maths kat sekolah pun na tekentut blaja baru oke. tu pun setakat oke. tak xcllnt pn. aduhaii. macam mane la if aku amek, bergelumang dengan maths. statistics. waa. stndrd medic aku rase, cume medic a part of remember-ing and akuari nieh mengira. mesti calculator jd teman seumur hidup aku kan. hmm, mak aku cakap pulak. peluang pekerjaan tade la luas mane. situsitu je nanti. well, semua tu begantung kat luna. if luna nak tu. insya-Allah ade rezeki dapat la kerja kan.

i love love love to be an architect, but but but im not creative and blablabla like what architect should have la kan. waa, i really love to be an architect. bcause luna suke tgok rumah cantikcantik and i always hoping thatone fine day, luna bley reka rumah luna sendiri. by my own hand. mesti lg berharga kan. im not orang kaye who can hire an architect, my dad orang biasebiase je. they cant hire an archiect. rumah pn sempoii je. asal boleh berdiri lindung kami anak beranak dah la. tade istilah nak upah interior designer ke ape. decorate je seniriseniri. luna harap evntgh im not an architect or a home designer, one day luna ley hire them fe my parents house. yang luna beli ble luna kaya nanti. hee. impian tinggi menggunung betul. cinta betul saya terhadap rekabentuk dan etc nieh. well, architect pn memerlukan maths. so fe those yang cube nak lari dari maths tp na amek architect bek tapaya la. sebab maths is everywhere. xcpt if amek law. tu je la. setakat kirekire bpe tahun penjara je. congak pn bley,cheyy. hahaha.

nak amek engineering. hmm, i dont know. i love physics and math. but. im not xclent in both subject. plus, some ppl says, "oit, perempuan pnye otak more to mengingat. laki yang tk mgiregire nie". okai fine, saya admit tu. sememangny lelaki memang jauhh lebih pakar bab kirakira more than girls do. hee.  so now, macam.. hee. i cant be an engineer i guess. tade keyakinan langsung. well, my sis said, if i want to be an engineer, amek la diploma dulu if ta yakin na amek asasi because diploma blaja slowly sket dari asasi. hmm. pk lagi. dapat ke luna result yang melayakkan semue nieh. hee. tatao la. then, agak ny if luna amek enginering nieh, there is no scholarship yang layak kot. smue ny tinggitinggi. hmm.

dentist? acc luna terinspirasi nak jadi dentist because tlampau nak sangat berpagarkan besi di gigi ini. na mintak kat ayah, but.. im not kaye. so, malas la nak susakan ayah. nanti if dapat scholarship bestbest. peruntkkan kat braces sket. so, im so so so interested towards dentistry nieh. some ppl say. *asykasyk org cakap je. okai. dorg ckp, its quite tough. smtym its lagi lagi susa dari medic. i macam.. wahh. tgk my abg medic student yang study gegile nieh, dapat result tade la A+ pn. anatomy la ape ah. pening. cne la org ckp dentist lagi susa? mati kot na study macam tu. mybe because dentistry blaja lbey kurang medic, but shorter. discount 1 year kan? hmm. ya Allah, harapharap luna bley jadi dentist macam yang my mum was hoping fe. my dad na i want to be a doctor. which is memang susa. acctly both susa na dapat. so skrg, luna na cakap awalawal, sorry, if im not get what both of you want. im just ordinary student. yang never score xclent result..

pape pn, depends on my results, i do hope, luna dapat salah satu nieh. but if semua tadapat. luna pegi kat nursing or tessel. tessel or tesol? wtv la. but antare due la. both oke. and both my parents tak kesa. janji belajar kan? heh. banyak kot pahale both keje tuu. helping ppl. but kawankawan semua gelakkan. dorg tak percaye langsung luna bley jadi good nurse or good teacher. kejam kan mereka? =.=

ohh, suda 2010.

Happy New Year ppl,

semoge indah sahaja perjalanan kamukamu tahun ini.

today notes ; panjang saya mengarang. saya rindukan awak. ye, awak. nak naik bende spinning tu. i miss you a lot lot lot. T__T

pocketfullofsunshine,

lunasayang.