when stupid become stupider. = ="

hey, its me, Luna. (:

hmm, cik NFK, i dont have words. 

i think my communication skill getting worse and worse since i just sit doing nothing at home. seriously i feel so stupid now. like i never know anything. yesterday i ask my babang, what is K in periodic table. bodoh tak bodoh? K tu kan potassium. grr. i need to refresh my brain before it getting worse. well, its so damn worse now.then tadi try to help someone with her addmath stuff. Thank God, i still remember to do that. progression jee kot. if she ask me trigo, im gonna die because i dont think i will get the answer. yea, in this mean time. to be honest, i miss school life. everyday with a lott of hw. *im not someone who alwys fnshed hw. ntah, i dunno what am i missing at school. mybe it just a regret for being just a stupid and lazy student duludulu. stop it luna, u sound so bodoh. = ="

and now, i cant stop thinking of my upcoming result. goshh, im so damn scare! takutt gyle na mati. yea, i know its sound HA HA HA HA fe those yang pandai. fe those yang 'kurang' pandai like me, its like hari pembalasan. duhh, i wish i can turn back time. hmm, its not because of the memories with my deary bestf, but i want to study again. -,- sudah terhantuk baru terngadah. now i know my mom and my dad want me to get the best so i can go anywhere, layak je mohon semua. hmm,actually i have a lil problem now, i dont know my hala tuju right after this. macam orang hidup tade pengangan. terumbang ambing. macam tu la dalam hati luna sekarang. terumbang ambing buut not because tade pegangan but tade citecite. some of my friend have started their further study now, sedangkan luna still on the same place without any changes. im so so so so jelous with them. honestly, im so envy to them. *sigh.

please, get me out of this feeling. i cant stop thinking of my future, seriously i dun think my upcoming result is not good as others especially my babang. huhh. some one please get me a counselor. i neva thinking about goin to see a counselor. memang tak pernah because im not interested, i hate PMD that we all have to attend every year. there is not a lot of diff since im form 1 till i finished my form 5. sorry cegu, i dun mean to hurt ur feeling. mybe its because of me yang memang ta minat untuk di touchingtouching kan hati. ur program is good.its true. but its the same thing every year. *enough, i dun want to hurt anyone. so now im so terhegeh hegeh searching fe counselor. anyone want to be counselor to me? = =" yea, now the only person who i can talk about this is my babang. he always told me that i can do it, there nothing to worry about my result. HA HA HA. *sigh. 

what is the best job fe me?

anyone can get the answer fe me.

hadiah misteri menanti anda. *stupid.

today notes ; rainbow rainbow. :D

itsallaboutme,

lunasayang.

yea, i falling in love with you.

*title entry tade kenemngene dengan the old raksase hijau.


heyy, hello.

mamat, 

you are not my raksase hijau anymore.

because you're someone belonging. *salah ek ayat?

aaa, you belong to someone.

now you're e's or i's. *not so sure her name i or e.

bukan raksase hijau like i used to call you dulu.

i know when you love someone, you really mean it.

konon big obstacle laa ape laa. lastlast, ended up with happy ending jugak. (:

congratulation. *evntgh awak tabtau luna pn.

may SHE love you as you love her. 

and taking care of ur heart yang sometime, brittle. -,-

wish you last long long long. 

today notes ; abang, get well soon oke! rindu na men kejakeja. (:

ps; cik Raimy Shafiq, saye da buat post

yang bernada normal and happy. :B

sometimeineedyourhandtohold,

lunasayang.

itsTRUE.

i cried a lot lot lot.

sampai mate sepet sepet sesepetnye.

i cant let you go.

i dont know why.

i dont have the answer.

haveitoldyou?

hello, hye. 

lepaking wif mak, talking about my future husband. 

luna ; if the only if jodo adik dengan mat saleh?

mom ; mak memang tak suke dan tak berkenan. cubecube la kawen ngn orang tuu. tawu la adik nanti.

luna ; haa. kang adik kawen betulbetul baru tawu.

mom ; kawen la kawen. nanti susa jangan bisengbiseng nak cari mak. mase tu mak bukan boleh tolong ape.

luna ; mak takesa kalaw adik susa?

mom ; kau yang cari masalah. *ade pulak kan cakap mcm tu.

luna ; mak tanak yang mate biru? hijau?

mom ; buat ape klw tade agame. huh. *emosional la pulak. -,-

luna ; dont worry la mak, i was hoping fe Indonesian.

mom ; hah? kat tepitepi rumah pun melambak. HAHAHA.

luna ; -,- mak nieh, tepitepi rumah tu? pleasee. im looking fe Indonesian yang mix ngn dutch oke. bukan muke tak mandi. mcm tu.

mom ; hahaha. okay, klw adik nak tu mak kasi. pastikan adik kaye. nanti bley selalu bawak mak pegi Indonesia. *serious?

luna ; of cz! i love you! <3

HAHAHAHA.

* menggedik nak kawen. -,-

today notes ; rindu Mia. :(

sometimeiwishyouwilllykme,

lunasayang.

merry-go-round.

i miss you. yeah. you. 

jum pegi maen merry go round.

 

the only thing that can make me smile when there is something stuck in my head.

this thing take me away from the stupidous problemo. 

its spinning and spinning take me away from this world. 

laju. angin. buat luna lupe semua. buat luna dalam dunia luna sendirian.

menangis macam tade lagi hari esok untuk ditangiskan. pathetic betul.

ade orang yang tolak supaye ianya spinning.

kemudian pabila sudah laju, beliau duduk menghadap luna sambil berputar.

he sat there and see me cried. he doesnt say anything. 

when its start to be slow again, he stand and make it spinning again. 

he keep on repeating the same thing. make it spinning and then sat in front of me.

until there is no tears. 

beliau memperlahankannya sambil berbicara dengan lembut. 

i didnt say what am i crying for. but he always know how to comfort me.

the merry go round still spinning in the slow motion. 

and its gonna stop at the time when i stand up and menjerit sekuat hati.

then everything going back to normal. as usual.

merry go round tu menjadi mangsa kami lagi. kali ini dengan penuh gelak ketawa.

dan seribu senyuman penuh erti. (:

today notes ; i miss you a lot lot lot. i wish you here now. because merry go round that i ride not gonna stop when there is no you. it keep on spinning. please be here beside me. i need you.

*my english going to be worst worst and worst.

spinningagainagainandagain,

lunasayang.