I miss my guardian angel so freaking damn much! :( Abang, did you know I miss you?
I know how my abang feels now. I know he suffered to success there. I know it. Im so sorry because I can do nothing. :( I cant help you. Adik useless kan? Hmm. I know you choose this path because of ayah kan? Ayah want so bad one of his child be a doctor. As you know, ayah tak paksa one of us should or shouldnt be a doctor. but I know deep inside his heart. he want so bad. He want all of us kalau boleh. Unfortunately, the only one who are qualified to be a doctor is you. Only you. None of the girls qualified. Im sorry im not good enough to be a doctor. Im sorry fe making you made a decision to be a doctor eventho you are not good in remember things. I know, mybe if Im good enough, then he wont choose medic. Im sorry fe making you leave the subject that you love the most; physics. :( I know you miss physics kan? I know when you try your best to answer all my question. I know you had fun being around physics kan. And Im sure, you've finish answered the question kan? But you want to push me to do it by myself kan. Saye tawu. Saye rse sedoh gilaa, sebab saye tak pernah tgk abang suffer kalau belaja. He always enjoy every single things that he learned. Hmm.
Sometimes, I wish I can full fill your dream. Being an engineer is your dream kan? I wish I can. Please please please. I want to be an engineer fe you. I want to achieve your dream that you have to leave because of my stupidness. :) Pray fe me. And I always pray fe you. I know you can do it because abang kan abang luna. :D Dah jangan tense2. I love you!
Today Notes; I miss my mr A when I looked at you.